If you've been following the last few posts of this blog, you know that the guy with the sign which reads, "The End is Near" was pretty much right on with regard to the relationship that has been chronicled in this blog.
D has moved to another city, a new job, and a new path. I have stayed put. We finally talked about the "elephant in the room," (what happens now to us?).
What started so beautifully back in the spring of 2008 has run its course. We did a lot with one another, from exploring a Head of Household relationship, to getting much deeper into D/s, to discovering that I have a bit of a sub side (and D is a bit of a Top, as well).
We tried living together, living apart, having an exclusive relationship, having an open one. We got involved in the spanking party scene at Shadowlane, Boardwalk Badness, and Florida Moonshine - and loved it. (Although, I must say, I think that D has moved past these parties.)
We attended Dom Com and had a blast. We made fantastic friends in the community of spankos and bdsm. We learned a lot from all of this, and from one another.
We're simply not the same two people who met and fell in love nearly five years ago. We've both changed and the time has come to appreciate what we had, treasure what we gave one another, and move on.
That's what we're both doing. Moving on.
Please - don't feel badly for me or for D. It's all good. Sure, I'm nostalgic and disappointed it didn't last forever - but nothing does, and there's nothing one can do about it. Enjoy what you have when you have it, let it go when you no longer have it, and build something new.